Life has a funny way of teaching you things you never knew you needed to learn.
At the beginning of 2016, I chose a one word theme for the year — something to help keep me motivated, something to drive me and my decisions, something BIGGER than resolutions that are notorious for being broken time and time again. I chose growth. Growth.
Growth – noun.
- the process of growing.
Growing – verb
- to become better or improved in some way
I’ve always been the type of person who had expectations of how my life would go, or plans on how it would all work out in the end. By choosing the word “growth” this year, my expectations were that I would gain insight into different aspects of my life to live a little happier. I was seeking that “passion” in my career that everyone talks about when they say “living the dream” or “love what you do, you never work a day in your life.” I was seeking that “drive” when it came to living a healthier lifestyle, becoming “fit” mentally, physically, emotionally. I was looking to find more sunshine and rainbows, even in the mundane “everyday” routinized activities we “have” to do. Talk less, smile more. Become a better “me” so I can be better in every other role I fill.
I had no idea how much “growing” I would actually have to do this year.
How much work I needed to do, not just in the areas I wrote above — but in areas I didn’t even know needed help.
Or did I know but refused to believe it? Or did I know but just was too blind to actually see it? Was my heart confusing my head, or was my head telling my heart different things to protect it from getting broken?
Will I ever know?
Does it even matter now, at this point?
I’m not sure I believe in the adage “Everything happens for a reason.” I believe that everything happens the way it is supposed to, whether there is a reason or not. I’m still trying to wrap my head (and heart) around the “not needing to understand reasons or lack of reasons” part, but I’m working on it.
Someone wise once told me, “Everyday is another opportunity to turn it all around.” I believe that. We have one life, one chance, one moment, one breath, one body, one mind, one soul. Now is the time, the time is now.
Remember. Stop crying in the corner of the kitchen. Pick up your pieces. Dust off your shoulders. Breathe in, slowly let it out.
Remember. Smile from your liver. Stop, Cancel Cancel. Everyday is another opportunity it turn it all around.
Remember. 10 miles, barefoot. Stronger than you think. Move forward. Look back, but only to enjoy the memories and then let them go.
Remember. 26 breaths per minute. Take another one. One foot in front of the other. One more mile ran. One more sad song. “How does it feel?”
Remember. “I’m not in love with you anymore, I’m in love with someone else.” “Eat. Workout. Clean yourself up.” Supernova. Everyday is another opportunity to turn it all around.
mber. “Today is going to be a great day. The sun is shining, a few clouds in the sky. And today is going to be a great day.” “God, please help me.” Send me love and light, and drop it.
Remember. She’s looking to you. She deserves it. She is everything. She will learn from you how to get through the seemingly impossible. Find rainbows everyday.
Remember. “They will be lining up at your door.” Columbia. Afternoon movies and bookstores. Falling more in love with the city that never sleeps. Can’t start a new chapter when you keep rereading the old ones.
Remember. Prospect. Central. Try new things. Talk less, smile more. Move forward, with me. Everyday is another opportunity to turn it all around.
Remember. Just remember.
You’ve got this. Don’t you forget it.
Find rainbows everyday. When you are living the best version of yourself, you inspire others to live the best versions of themselves. Love the person you’ve become because you fought to become her. Sometimes the negative things that happen in our lives put us directly on the path to the BEST things that will ever happen to us.